If I Only Knew

I remember the times I had you
I remember the times you'd call my name
I remember the times I said “I love you”
And those times you said you felt the same.

Those were the times…
The happiest moments of my life
I never felt as special and needed and wanted
As during those times I had you by my side.

But those times are over now
And memories are all that I have left
With the pain in my heart and the tears I've shed,
I can't help but look back and regret.

I regret the day I met you
I regret the day I fell for you
I regret the day you broke my heart
And the way you tore it apart.

Why did you have to leave me?
Why did it have to be this way?
I'm tired of crying --- I feel so numb
Some start to think that I've been so dumb.

If I only knew it'll hurt this much
If I only knew I'd cry this much
If I only knew I'd suffer this much
Then I might have thought twice before loving you.

If I only knew…
Things might not have been the same.
If I only knew…
Then I might have chosen not to love you.

But who am I fooling?
I know better than that.
Despite the pain, the tears, and the heartaches,
I know I'd still choose to walk the same path.

So dear, now I tell you
If I knew the pain I'd go through,
I'd still be stubborn and stupid
And still, I'd love you.